宝贝2

Oh.. yes... 宝贝2 means... I am expecting baby #2 now. Baby#2 will be over 3 months by this Friday which means I am looking forward to crossing this 1st trimester milestone!

Why so?

Baby#2 pregnancy wasn't a stable one. Had light spotting which later became fresh red bleeding. During a span of 1.5 weeks or was it 2 weeks, I visited GlenE and Dr Chan so often to get hormone injections and was on Duphaston pills like 3 times a day. The hormone injections were the fearful one, coz:
1) I am afraid of injections!
2) After-effects of hormone injection was so painful (taken at buttock close to side-pelvic area). Yes, the pain occured 1 day after the injection and lasted for next 2 days! It felt like a WWF wrestler had punched you real hard at your pelvic with super sore bruises after. Try sitting or sleeping on the side with injection and I'll go... OOOHHH...ARGGHHHH!!! This was not yet the worse.... the ultimate experience was... before I could get over with the pain from injection, I had to go for the next... ! All in, I think I had 5 hormone injections and am glad this was over!

So much for the painful experience, I think the worst hit is still the emotional aspect. The fear of going to restroom coz I was so afraid to see any spotting/bleeding. Once, I thought I was going to lose baby#2 when it was more than spotting! That moment, my heart was pounding real hard and I was so frightened. Every thought was fighting for a space in my mind, every thought was flashing through my mind....."did I do something wrong just now?", "did not not have enough bedrest as advised by Dr Chan?", "am I weak to carry baby#2?", "was it because I travelled twice while unknowingly expecting baby#2?" .... oh.. it was emotionally stressful, so uncontrollable. Thank goodness, Dr Chan and Dr Sng were really encouraging. These words " it's not you, nothing to do with you, it's just that the pregnancy itself is unstable" ... these words made me stopping finding fault and concentrate on bringing the pregnancy to stablility.

So, baby#2 experience so far has been different. Different coz I did not have to go through a threatened miscarriage when expecting Keira. Life is so vulnerable and precious. Others have gone through worst times than me, and I am thankful baby#2 is getting stable with a good heartbeat per last check. Next week, I will be doing my triple test and looking forward to seeing baby#2 on scan.