A long overdue letter to Keira

Why did mummy say "a long overdue letter to Keira"?

It's been ... well... slightly long overdue because .... in the middle of one night (some 2-3 wks ago), after I fed Keisha delicious mummy-milk and seeing that she has dozed off ... I starting thinking about you, my dear Keira.

Why? and why did mummy think of you when I see you everyday? ... *sob* *sob* That night, my mind was full of "u" with lots of questions, thoughts and heartaches. That night, mummy wanted to pen those thoughts in this blog but was too tired to get out of bed. After some weeks today, I found the time, energy and perhaps courage as well to write you my 1st letter here.

Keira, mummy wanted to pen this so that one day, when you grow up and is sensible enough to read this, you will know how much "aches" mummy has gone through during this period of time with you and keisha. These 3 months have been super hectic for mummy... Perhaps having 2 kids with a close age gap is not that good a choice. With you at your Terrible 2, sometimes I don't know how to deal with your tantrums. Worst, mummy is becoming terrified and worried because I do not know when you will stop throwing tantrums as and when you like it. No matter how I explained to you, no matter how I screamed at you... you just don't listen! Not only is this a mental stress on me, I am feeling physically very very tired too. Those evenings that I have to drag and carry you home with so many bags on my shoulders is an extremely exhausting event. Mummy tell u ... I don't like that at all. But the moment you became well-behaved and sweet again, mummy's heart melted instantly!

Some nights, when all's quite with you and keisha sleeping soundly, mummy could only lie down flat on couch and not do anything! Mummy really wish that you can outgrow this T2 and help mummy nurture your lil sis keisha, instead of giving me additional headache. Before, mummy always look forward to weekends, spending time with you. But now, weekends have become my greatest dilemma. The fact that I want to spend all my time with you and keisha has not changed, but with 2 of u, one at 2 and one only 2.5 mths old ... handling both of you is just so challenging. When keisha needed to nap, you will be talking at the top of your voice (even though the room door is shut) and she will be deprived of her sleep. Otherwise, you will be throwing tantrums again for (to us) no reasons.

Though you have not been really obedient, mummy applaud you for not feeling jealous over your lil sis. Of coz, sometimes you do want papa and mummy to carry you when you see us cuddling keisha... but you are really good in this sense. Mummy thank you for that because this has definitely taken a load of my chest worrying how to deal with it if your jealousy gets over your head.

Before I end this note... mummy also hope that you will be cooperative with us in your toilet training. Teachers in school praised you for being very cooperative but you have not extended the same treatment to mummy. Why? are you punishing me? Please... I really hope I don't have to clear your poo and pee soon....

Love,
Mummy

Keira is 2!!!

Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to U
Happy Birthday to Lele
Happy Birthday to U!

Keira has been singing Happy Birthday song over the past month. Not that she was preparing for her birthday but the childcare center that she attends has quite a number of birthday celebrations in Aug and Sept. So... many nites leading to her big 2 ... Keira and I were 'practicing' happy birthday, cut cake and blow candle before her bedtime ... ... and she enjoyed it! U bet... i was looking forward to her big 2 celebration at her childcare last friday! I ordered a 2kg cake with a swimming pool coz she kept asking me to bring her swimming, and made goodie bags for all the kids in her childcare...

Guess what!!! Just look at the below 2 pictures taken last friday at her celebration with her childcare frens and teachers! My goodness! did anyone owe her money???????



Look... all the kids were so excited... showing the V sign and smiling happily for the camera ... but... look at Keira! She doesn't even want to blow the candles!



After I went through that effort, it seems Keira isn't quite used to the "shock" and "attention" on her! ....

So... on Sat (yesterday), her actual birthday, I bought a mini cupcake and asked for a small candle. I thought, perhaps.... Keira would like to have a little, small celebration with me, papa and Keisha.... So ... look at below pictures... u'll see the difference in atmosphere... with a much much smaller cake and a much much smaller candle! haha...






So, u see.. Keira did finally get to sing birthday song to herself, blow her candle and cut her cake! Seeing her elder sis enjoying her mini cupcake, Keisha thought she wanted to have a "slice" of the cake too.....


"noooooooooooooooo...." ... was Keira's response to Keisha.... haha....