I can't sleep....
Too many things bugging me, my mind. So.. let's blog about Keira!
Hmm... my blogging frequency seems to have dropped drastically over the past few months. Why? Nevermind... it doesn't matter to you, my dear audience/frens here. As long as I continue to update about lil terror the keira... it should not matter, right?
Ok.. enough said, let's getting into this biz..
Lately, I began to feel a change in Keira. What change? hmm... I can't really pin down a specific change... but then again.. it seems to make me feel that... Keira has grown! Not so much in build, size.. but ... mentally! What I am trying to say is...just 2-3 weeks ago, I was very very (extremely) upset that Keira was ignoring me as HER MOTHER! So upset that there was this particular week, Keira simply ignored me everytime I arrived at Bro's house to pick her up! She would walked away when I went into the house... and avoid contact with me. All she wanted then was my mum (her grandma), my niece, my eld bro... and even my sis-in-law...everyone except ME! What the %$#%.... what did I not do right? or what have I done wrong?? I kept pondering for nites... and my ultimatum was when she refused to go home with me..and cried all the way home, while cleaning her up... right up till she fell asleep from fatigue! That nite.. I remembered it was a friday nite... I couldn't withstand this emotionally... and I cried to hb. Blar..blar..blar...meh..meh...meh... I went...telling my hb how hurt i was... blar blar blar....
After some consolation, and still couldn't figure out what went wrong, I decided to perform my role better (with some advice from hb). That weekends...and following weekdays... I spent every moments I can have with her... played with her... looked into her eyes... hugged her.... gave her all my attention (even though I was exhausted!!!)... and every nite when I brought her home... I played with her for an hour...... show her new things... hugged her....until she fell asleep. At this juncture.. you (my reader of blog) must be thinking... have I not been doing all these at all.. all these while??? The answer is... YES I HAVE ever since she was born! So... what difference have I made these past weeks???? My conclusion was (is) ... my actions are MORE INTENSE than b4. Instead of purely entertaining her... like before, I engaged her with all intensity! ...I tell u.. it made a whole world of difference after these 2-3 weeks of efforts! Keira has been showing me alotsa love lately... she hugs my legs, my body, my arms....... and she doesn't cry knowing she needs to go home with me, instead she holds my finger, and wave everyone "goodbye"... and walks off "finger-in finger" with me to the lift! Tonight... though I picked her up pretty late (845pm which by usual practice, she would have been asleep), and she was having fun with my bro and niece.... she actually left the place with me without any protest and waved everyone "goodbye" .... and stayed so obedient throught out the journey back home, and tugged herself so tightly to me when I carried her. Seems to show me that she knows what she is doing, that she is happy with ME as her mum NOW... and feeling the love from me... and thus reciprocating the love back to me...
Hmm...Such a nice feeling. Guess there is no answer to her behaviour why she reacted that way 3 weeks ago?????
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give a pat on your back for all these effort you put in. Wayne does this to me at times , esp when he ignore me completely when i was away for a week for biz trip. This is a form of 'punishment' and kids do that to parents all the time. And they like to do it esp to the one parent that is VERY concerned about her/him. They know who to bully and it seems that Keira knows your weaknesses. This is part of growing up!!!! But i think you did such a good job!!!
scary isn't it...that at such a tender innocent age, they know how to target at our weaknesses! haha!
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